when colors fade...

2005-11-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

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sobrang saya...! yun lang ang masasabi ko...

three days were more than enough to compensate for the five long months that we have not seen each other...

guys..THANK YOU for making such an event possible!

killer?!

2005-09-10T08:38:00.000+08:00

haaayyyyyyyy.... deadlines! feeling ko pinapatay na ako ng schoolwork pero ok pa naman ako...surviving ika nga! everyweek na lang parang may mga kailangang tapusin, may kailangang i-pass... nangangarag na ako... feeling ko wala na akong pahinga... feeling ko ndi ko na nagagawa yung mga bagay na gusto ko talagang gawin... yung tipong mag-mall ng hindi mo iniisip yung oras... yung gumala ka na wala kang iniisip na mga requirements na kailangang tapusin... haaayyyyy... buhay nga naman....sana sem break na... sana matapos na 'tong September na pamatay... october na sana para makagimik na ulit ako... para makita ko na yung mga kabarkada ko...hahahahahaha....PASCUA signing off!

ready or not?!

2005-09-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

"only love can make you cry & only love knows why?...

if you're not ready to take the risk,

if you're not ready to feel the pain

then you're not ready to fall in LOVE..."

hmmm... what do you think? as for myself, i think that what hinders me from falling in love is the fear of getting hurt... not that i've been through a traumatic relationship, it's just that i don't want to risk my feelings... it's hard to feel bad, it's hard to feel the pain that is caused by a beautiful thing such as love... i'm afraid to invest my feelings because i fear that i might not get something in return... i don't know... maybe i'm just not sure of how and what i feel... maybe what i have inside is not love after all... or maybe it's love just in a different form... who knows?! does love know the answer?! ... i'll just wait and see...

phenomenal!

2005-08-22T12:35:00.000+08:00

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yipee!

2005-08-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

we're going to batad, banaue tomorrow night. it's a fieldtrip for our geography 173 class. i'll be outside the metro for almost four days. gonna miss my family...hahahahahaha... but it's ok. i'm sure that this fieldtrip will be one of the best if not the best...hehehehehe... watch out for a photo album once i get back! pls pray for our safety!

isko!

2005-08-01T16:19:00.000+08:00

ISKO

glad to be ONE.

proud to be ONE.

'coz being an ISKO is just like being number ONE.

sa kanya... pa rin

2005-07-31T17:42:00.001+08:00

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya, bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali mang isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh

Sa kanya.

ano nga kaya?! sa kanya pa rin ba?! ang sagot?! siguro oo, sa ngayon sa kanya pa rin talaga, babalik at babalik ako sa kanya... pero ewan ko lang kung magbubukas pa ang puso niya para sa akin...! sa kanya talaga... wag ko man aminin, 'yun ang sinisigaw ng puso ko... 'yun ang bulong ng damdamin... sabi nga nila mas malakas at mas totoo ang mga bagay na hindi natin naririnig... mas makapangyarihan ang mga bulong ng puso kaysa sa mga salitang binibigkas ng ating bibig... napagisipan ko lang na bakit ko lolokohin ang sarili ko kung alam ko naman na siya pa rin at siya na man talaga maski noong mga panahon na malapit na akong bumitiw... siya at sa kanya ang talagang sigaw ng damdamin, puso , at isip ko.

fun-filled saturday!

2005-07-23T19:48:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahaha... i went to school today for the GSUP's applicants' orientation... gosh, it was as if i'm really excited because i arrived at around 10:20 and the orientation would not start until 1:30 in the afternoon... man, am i excited?! not so with the orientation... what i am excited for was the fact that we're gonna eat lunch at katips... hahahahahaha... food na laman... hmmmm... but we have to research for our Geog 133 paper... sadly, i don't have an ID because it was lost last summer... sad! and because of that, i was not able to join my groupmates in doing the reserach... sorry! and so instead of doing nothing, i decided to go to the GSUP tambayan... yun nga lang wala naman tao, kaya ayun mag-isa akong tumambay... hahahahahahaha... then joy texted to me to go to the library coz we'll be having lunch daw at Chocolate Kiss instead of going to Katipunan... well, it was a good thing that they have decided to eat at a nearby eatery... les yung gastos kasi knowing joy, magtataxi nalaman kami pabalik ng Diliman kung pupunta pa kami ng Katips... hahahahahaha... had a great meal at Chokiss... very filling and satisfying... yummmmmmmm... great, great! tapos ayun, orientation na... ok naman... tawa lang kami ng tawa... sana maging member na kami ng mga Co-applicants ko....hahahahahahaha... pero wala pa kaming batch name eh...?! sad... pero ok lang yun, in time eh makapagiisip din kami... basta had a really fun day today... it's really good if you're with the company of good friends... in my case, saya kasama ng poorita family... hahahahahaha... beggar na beggar... hahahahahahaha... un lang... saya 'no?!

when blood flows over my body...

2005-07-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

thank GOD it's FRIDAY!

2005-07-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

wala lang friday na! and take note, it's a loooong weekend! hahahahaha... long na yung 3 days no, atleast makakakapagrest talaga.... tsaka ayun, masaya lang kasi tapos na ang tiring week na ito... kasi almost everyday nitong nakalipas na linngo eh may importante ako/kaming ginawa sa school...

MONDAY: long exam sa GEOL 11

TUESDAY: super looooooooooooooong exam sa GEOGRAPHY 173: Cultural Geography (naumay ako sa culture habang nag-aaral for that exam, biruin niyo, i read 3 readings, one has 30 pages, the other has 20, and another one has 15...whew...but that's not all may REPUBLIC ACT pa kami na inaral...helloooooowww... LAW ba ito?! akala ko GEOG lang...hahahahaha)

WEDNESDAY: nagresearch para sa exercise (lab output) sa GEOL 11.1... haay, ang hirap mag-aral ng mga BATO... nakakabato!

THURSDAY: nag geol laboratory kami... haaayyy... ang hirap... ang hirap i-identify ng mga METAMORPHIC rocks... nakaka-MORPH... hahahahahahaha...

FRIDAY: wala lang... wala naman masyadong ginawa today... tama nga sinabi nung teacher namin sa 173... rest muna daw... time to recollect the pieces of our brain na sumabog nung sinagutan namin yung exam niya... siguro today eh... bumalik na ang 50% ng aking brain cells...hahahaha... nagpoprocess na siya ng mahusay kahit papaano... ayun! nagpunta rin ako sa BF Night Market with my cousin... i bought a necklace na may parang ethnic design and two KOREAN DVDs... hahahaha...excited na kong manuod pero bukas na lang siguro para mas masaya...hahahahahaha
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------well...weekend na! tayo ay magsaya! hahahahaha...--- punta akong UP 2m... orientation ng GSUP! sasali na ako ng org... tanda ko na kasi eh, tapos wala pa akong org..... hahahahahahaha... kain kami ng lunch sa KATIPS... yummmm.... sobrang nagcacrave kasi kami nila joy for pizza, pasta, and chicken....yummmmmmmmm....hahahahaha....!

my day. from the 1st hour up to the 23rd...

2005-07-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

12:30 am --- nahiga sa kama at eventually ay nakatulog na rin dahil sa sobrang pagod

5:45 am --- my mom woke me up because we're going to Manresa, my brother has an appointment with the guidance counselor... (grrr.. i hate to wake-up at a very early time... lalu na puyat pa ako...)

6:00 am --- naligo!

6:15 am --- nagbihis na po ako... [outfit: brown/dark grey shirt, ripped pants, black slippers; accessories: necklace from oxygen, wooden bracelet from bf night market]

6:45 am --- ate breakfast with the whole family... [food: spam with steamed rice, spanish sardines in olive oil]

7:00 am --- went to my cousin's room to ask her if she's already leaving for school and to offer her a ride to the jeepney terminal

7:15 am --- left home for manresa

7:30 am --- arrived at manresa... greeted ate melinda (the guard)... saw sir del! hahahaha... "pumayat ka!", said sir del.

7:30- 8:00am --- waited for sr. pacita and ms. baclagan

8:00- 9:00 am --- read the first 15 pages of the book "Love in Time of Cholera" by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

9:00- 9:30am --- ate snacks with my brother and mom... [food: pringles, 2 packs of pillows]

9:30- 11:15am --- read the next 15 pages of "LiToC"... while lstening to good music courtesy of my ever so reliable "shuffle"

11:20am --- left manre for atc

12:00pm --- ahhhh....ATC!

12:30pm --- ate a very heavy lunch at Italliani's... [food: fried calamari, "bread", lasagna, angel hair, pomodoro]

12:30- 2:00pm --- shopping! bought 2 CDs: orange and lemons' STRIKE WHILST THE IRON IS HOT and cueshe's HALF EMPTY, HALF FULL; and a shirt from bench

2:10pm --- left ATC for HOME via a taxi cab

2:50pm --- fixed the things that i bought

3:00- 4:00pm --- rested for a while...hahahahahahaha

4:00 -7:00pm --- played SIMS 2

8:30- 9:00pm --- typed the part of the geol 11 readings that pay asked for...

9:00pm --- joined the World Wide Web

9:00pm- onwards ---- surfed the net... typed a post (a not so decent post)... browsed through my friends' friendster accounts (revisited...hahahahahaha)...*** texted pauLo 'bout the planned gimiks for the coming months..."sana matuloy...dapat matuloy"

LIPAD!

2005-07-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

is the feeling really gone?!

2005-07-12T21:27:00.000+08:00

...ang hirap ng buhay 'no?! daming pagsubok... parang minsan gusto mo ng sumuko pero lumalaban ka pa rin kasi alam mo na walang mangyayari kung hahayaan mo na lang na lamunin ka ng mga peste ng buhay... hirap ng mag-isa kasi wala kang katulong... hirap ng mag-isa kasi wala kang inspirasyon... hirap mag-isa dahil wala kang masasandalan kapag hindi mo na talaga kaya, walang sasalo sa'yo 'pag talagang bagsak ka na... hirap ng mag-isa dahil wala kang kadamay kapag malapit ka ng kainin ng poot at lungkot... ayoko ng mag-isa...
now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
open up to me, like you do your girlfriends
and you sing to me and it's harmony
girl, what you do to me is everything
make me say anything; just to get you back again
why can we just try

i don't wanna be lonely no more
i don't wanna have to pay for this
i don't want to know the lover at my door
is just another heartache on my list

i don't wanna be angry no more
you know I could never stand for this
so when you tell me that you love me know for sure
i don't want to be lonely anymore

ang sarap sana kung babalik ka sa buhay ko... samahan ako, damayan ako... mahalin muli ako... ang sarap isipin na sa tabi ko'y muli kang naroon... ang sarap ISIPIN... pero hanggang isipan na lang siguro... ang magkatotoo ito ay isang panaginip na lang siguro, isang panaginip na ang sarap isabuhay... pero ano ang magagawa ko kung ang sa isip mo ay ang talikuran na ako... siguro nga ay kaibigan na lang muna tayo... hayaan na lang natin ang panahon na magdikta kung ano ang kapalaran mo, kapalaran ko... kapalaran ng pag-ibig na minsay pinagsaluhan natin...
where do i go
what do i do
i can't deny i still feel something
and girl, i wish you could say you feel the same
you've broken the bond
i gotta move on
but how do i end this lonely feeling?
you've gone, i'm here, alone
i guess it's time to grow

i try to speak, but my words never catch the air
like you never knew i was there
take me back to the days when you really cared
can we make love re-appear?
i can't go on the roads too long
and now all is said and done
i can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from

crying time is over
i know i can't control her feelings
if she won't return, then i guess i'll be a man
and move on

time to grow, and move on
make life better than it was before
time to grow and move on
make love better than i did before

though you've gone, And i'm here, alone
i guess it's time to grow

kakamiss ang HIGHSCHOOL

2005-07-11T16:46:00.000+08:00

got this one from PATCHOT's blog...:

1. san ka naghighschool?
* Manresa School
2. fave mong tambayan sa skul?
* sa canteen, sa classroom, sa mga batibot, sa CAT office, sa Rufino's after training
3. madalas ka sa library?
* hindi masyado, pumupunta lang ako doon kapag library hour namin... tapos yun magkukuwentuhan lang kami nila stef, just, chuch...
4. kumakain ka sa canteen?
* oo naman... recess with my chow chums; lunch with my barkada...basta hindi puwedeng hindi ka kumain sa canteen...
5. npalabas ka na ba sa library?
* napagalitan, OO! napalabas? hindi pa naman ata...hehehehehe
6. eh sa classroom?
*hmmm...ata?! hindi ko lang sure...pero most probably OO kasi hindi naman ako anghel noong HS!
7. bumagsak ka na ba sa ibang subjects mo?
* NOPE
8. ano fave mong subject?
* Araling Panlipunan, Filipino, Math, CAT
9. nagcut ka na ba?
* NOPE
10. nahuli ka na bang nangongopya?
* 2nd year ata yun...kay Ms. de Guzman....grrr...
11. nwalan ka na ba ng cel sa skul?
* NOPE kasi hindi naman ako nagdadala...
12. eh money?
* ata
13. subject(s) u like least?
* Biology..wala akong naintindihan...maybe it was the teacher...
14. may crush ka ba sa skul?
* oo naman...
15. mdmi ka ba kilala na nde mo clasm8s?
* may pagka...maski ibang elementary kilala ako kasi dahil na rin yun sa mga school plays na nasalihan ko...
16. active ka ba sa mga campings?
* hmm..kasama ba dito yung mga leadership trainings tsaka F.I. youth overnights?!
17. mdmi ka ba admirers sa skul?
* ewan ko... wala siguro...hahahahaha
18. cno partner mo nung js?
* 3rd year: Barbie
4th year: wala
19. lagi ka ba late?
* never akong nalate sa buong stay ko sa Manresa... ako ata nagbubukas ng gate duon eh...
20. lagi ka ba absent?
* NOPE
21. du u wear ur id ol d tym?
* kailangan eh...
22. do u write legibly?
* sabi naman nila OO
23. use cel inside ur room?
* NOPE...hindi ko nga dinadala eh...
24. mdmi ka ba nkktang magxota sa skul?
* OPO!
25. ilan dnadla mong notebuks?
* kung ano ang mga subject nooong araw na yun.
26. eh books?
* depende...
27. canteen or library?
* Canteen
28. absent or cut classes?
* absent na lang... lesser evil yun...
29. write or listen?
* listen
30. no teachers or no classes?
* no teachers, mas masarap makipagkuwentuhan eh...
31. ballpen or pencil?
* ballpen and pencil
32. writing lectures or writing nonsense things?
* both...!

[*credits: picture taken from MANRESA SCHOOL ALUMNI ASSOCIATION Official Website]

REVAMP

2005-07-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

kung akala niyo na sa mga cabinet members ni GMA lang uso ang revamp...

well, mag-isip-isip...

kasi ako gusto ko rin ng revamp...

kung baga, uso din siya para sa akin...

kaya ito...NEW LOOK ang aking blog...

simula pa lang 'to...

more NEW things to come...

sana magustuhan niyo...

TAKOT, KABA, HIYA!

2005-07-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

share ko lang po 'tong paper ko sa pan pil 19...its about a "ring"

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P****a, Lester *.
03- *****
Pan Pil 19

TAKOT, KABA, HIYA!

Nablanko ako ng sabihin ng aming guro na kailangan naming bumili ng “sex ring”, hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapt kong isipin ng mga panahon na iyon; hindi ko alam kung totoo ba nag aking mga narinig o sadyang kathang isip o guni-guni ko lamang ang mga iyon. Naglakad ako patungo sa labas ng pinot n gaming silid-aralan habang patuloy kung inuunawa ang takdang aralin na ibinigay sa amin. Para akong isang batang ligaw, isang batang tulala na tila walang kamuwang-muwang sa mundong kanyang ginagalawan. “Ano ba, totoo ba ito?”, tanong ko sa aking sarili. At iyon na nga, sumagi na sa aking kaisipan ang katotohanan, na ang lahat ng aking narinig ay pawang katotohanan lamang at hindi produkto ng aking imahinasyon. Naalala ko ang kuwento ng isa kong kaibigan na nagging estudyante rin ni Ginoong Turgo, sabi niya sa akin ay may ipabibili daw si G. Turgo sa kanyang mga estudyante, yun na nga ang “condom para sa mga babae at ang “sex-ring” or “penis-ring” naman para amin mga kalalakihan. Natawa ako ng aking naalala ang kuwento na iyon at pabiro kong nasabi sa sarili ko, “ito na ang kinatatakutan ko.”

Takot? Oo, takot. Takot dahil bilang isang batang nag-aral sa isang Katolikong Paaralan mula preschool hanggang hayskul ay parang salat lamang ang kaalaman ko tungkol sa mga maseselang bagay tulad ng sex, itinuring na “taboo” ang pag-usapan ang mga bagay-bagay tulad nito ng harap-harapan. Hanggat maari ay itong itakwil sa isipan dahil hindi daw ito angkop para sa mga batang katulad namin, hindi pa daw kami handang talakayin ang mga bagay na ganoon kaselan. Buko pa ditto, nakramdam din ako ng takot dahil sabi ng maing guro ay sa Quiapo lamang daw makabibili ng kanyang ipinagutos. Alam naman nating lahat kung gaano kadelikado ang pumunta sa isang lugar tulad ng Quiapo. Punung-puno ng negatibong ideya ang nakabalot at nakapalibot sa salitang Quiapo. Kesyo, ang Quiapo daw ay pugad ng mga isnatcher, holdaper, mandurukot, pusher, mga notorious na gang at pati na ang mga lalaki’t babaeng puta. Natakot ako para sa aking sarili at para sa aking buhay dahil alam ko na ang pumunta doon ng may kasama man o ng mag-isa ay may kaakibat na tangka sa aking kaligtasan. Pero kahit may takot man ay nagplano pa rin akong pumunta sa quiapo dahil kailangan kong pumunta, kailangan kong gampanan ang tungkulin ko bilang isang mabuting mag-aaral na gumawa ng aking mga takdang-aralin. Haaaaayyyyyy… ang buhay nga naman.

Kinausap ko ang aking mga kaibigan at tinanong ko sila kung maaari ba nila akong samahang pumunta ng Quiapo upang bumili ng “sex ring.” Sa kasamaang palad ay walang ni isang pinayagan na sumama sa akin dahil tulad ng aking pananaw na delikado sa Quiapo ay ganun din ang iniisip ng kanilang mga magulang. Kaba? Oo, kaba. Sinimulan na akong kabahan ng malaman ko na wala akong makakasama patungong Quiapo. Kinakabahan ako dahil kung nagkataon ay kakailanaganin kong pumunta sa doon ng mag-isa at kung hindi naman ay hindi na ako makabibili ng pinagutos sa amin dahil nilamon na ako ng matinding takot. Kabadong-kabado na talaga ako, ayaw ko naman na hindi ako makapgpapasa ng takdang aralin dahil hindi ako nakabili ng “penis ring” at lalu naming mas ayaw ko na mahold-up o di kaya ay mapahamak man lamang sa mga kalye ng Quiapo. Pero ano na nga ba ang gagawin ko? Kinailangan ko talagang mag-isip ng paraan, isang paraan na makasasagot sa aking mga problema, isang paraan na makapghihintulot sa kain na hindi na harapin ang mga bagay na aking kinatatakutan.

Buti na lamang at meron akong isang dakilang kaibigan na nakapgasabi na subukan ko daw pumunta sa Robinson’s Galleria dahil duon daw ay matatagpuan ko ang isang tindahan na naglalaman ng mga “gadgets” at iba pang mga bagay-bagay na ginagamit upang lalu pang mas mapagbuti ang sex. Malamang daw ay makabili ako dun ng aking hinahanap. Kaya naman napagpasyahan kong pumunta doon noong Miyerkules ng tanghaling-tapat. Dali-dali akong pumunta doon ng maybitbit na pag-asa at kaba. Pag-asa at kaba dahil gusto ko ng matapos ang gawain na iyon, umaasa ako na sana lang talaga ay may tinda silang “penis ring” doon at kaba naman dahil paano kung wala ay di kailangan ko talagang pumunta sa Quiapo ng mag-isa upang maghanap at bumili.

Pagpapasok ko ng tindahan ay tahimik lamang ako, nagmasid-masid, tumingin-tingin sa samu’t saring paninida na meron sila. Sa totoo lang, ay hindi ko ikinakala na ganoon pala kadami ang mga “gadgets o tools” na ginagamit upang mas gawing kaaya-aya ang sex. Napakadami talaga. Pinilit kong hanapin mag-isa ang “sex ring” na naturingan na siya ko naming kailangang bilhin pero hindi ko talaga masigurado kung tama na ba ang tinitignan ko dahil walang mga nakalagay na label sa karamihan ng kanilang mga produkto kaya napagdesisyunan kong magtanong sa isa sa mga saleslady. Hiyang-hiya talaga ako. Oo, hiyang-hiya. Pero kahit ganoon ang aking nararamdaman ay naglakas-loob akong lumapit sa isa sa mga tindera at aking tinanong, “Miss, meron ba kayo nung ring?” , sinagot naman niya ako ng maayos at itinuro niya sa kung saan ito nakalagay. Aba, may iba’t ibang klase pa pala ang mga “sex-ring” may iba’t ibang kulay, iba’t iba ring ang hugis at laki. Napagdesiyunan ko na bilhin ang pinaka mura dahil wala naman akong ibang layon sa pagbili noon, tanging para sa takdang-aralin lamang ang aking ginawang pagbili.

Para akong nabunutan ng tinik sa lalamunan ng mabayaran ko na ang aking pinamili. Parang napawi lahat ng takot, kaba at hiya ko ng makalabas sa pintuan ng tindahan. Gumaan ang pakiramdam ko dahil napatunayan ko na hindi naman mahirap ang isang bagay kung talagang determinado kang gawin ito. At napag-alaman ko din na bukas na ang isipan ng mga Filipino tungkol sa sex, na kahit papaano ay nabawasan na ang masamang tingin sa usaping iyon. Nakita ko rin kung paano nakikisabay ang mga Filipino sa pagiging malibog, na para sa atin ay ordinaryo na lamang ang maging malibog dahil ito ay natural, tao tayo, may tawag ng laman.

random thoughts

2005-06-27T15:34:00.000+08:00

alabang town center
15:42, monday
b connected internet cafe (sa may cinema area)

walalang...i'm waiting for my cousin coz we'll be watching a movie...4:10 or 4:20 ata ung showing pero paalis pa lang siya sa bahay ng friends niya..i doubt that she'llarrive on time...anywayscguro we'll wait na lang for the 5:20 screening of mr. & mrs. smith...bahala na si superman and all other superheroes na tulungan siyang makadaing ng maaga...hahahahaha...

gutom na ako actuall c wala pa akong protein na kinakain for the whole day tapos nag-workout pa ako for more or less 2 and half hours... grabe kapagod.... tapos nakakatakot yung mga kasabay ko kasi ang lalaki ng katawan nila parang kaya nila akong ibalibagwith one hand lang... hahahahahahaha...takot ako.... para silan monster..... well ako nagwoworkout hindi para magpalaki ng katawankundi magpapayat...usto ko slim lang... lean body... tapos may konting pagka-tone...diba?!

really hope that my cousi arrives on time para makauwi din kami ng maaga...gusto ko rin namang magpahinga...ahahahaha...pero ok na yun, tapos ko na naman yung mga assignment ko for tomorrow eh....

naku sana walang gagawin si andre' sa wednesday para masamahan niya ako sa quiapo kasimay pinapabili yung teacher namin sa pan pil 19.... sobrang ang halay...feeling ko nacocorrupt na ang aking innocent mind..hahahahahahaha..natatakot na ako at kinakabahan.... kayako ito, ako pa....parang bibili lang ng p**** ring eh....ano ba naman yun, hindi yun big deal.... kunwari! hahahaha, nakakahiya talaga... bahala na ang mga superheroes sa aking....hahahahahaha

yun lang maglolog-out na ako kasi malaki na babayaran ko....wala na akong pera...poor ako today... ciao!

Nasaan Ka Man: from "kaba" to satisfaction

2005-06-22T16:59:00.000+08:00

this was my third time to watch a movie all alone. but this time it is different because i did not really choose to watch this movie, it was a requirement for my panpil 17: pop culture class... our class was required to watch "Nasaan Ka Man", a Claudine Barreto, Jericho Rosales and Diether Ocampo starrer... our proffesor told us that we should watch this movie instead of the much-talked about "Batman Begins"... i wasn't really sure of what to expect because i'm not really a fan of movies much more local films... although i have heard a lot about this movie because of the numerous ads that were flashed on tv and printed on the newspapers, i was not that thrilled to view it... but what can i do...?! it's a requirement... and so i went to glorietta 4 after a tiring day at school and bought a ticket for the 5:50 screening... i bought a big bag of popcorn and a large drink... coz if the movie is bad then i have something to make myself happy... so i entered the cinema, and to my surprise a lot of people were actually there... couples, families, even teenagers like me were there to see this "romantic-thriller" flick... and so the movie started... i watched it while munching on my popcorn and enjoying my ice-cold drink... and it ended...

and here is my verdict: i think "Nasaan Ka man" is one of the best movies ever produced in the last decade or so... the technical aspects of the movie were absolutely great... the cinematography is impecccable, it surely captured the romantic and horrific side of Baguio (its setting)... direction was superb... the shots were awe-inspiring... the story was different in its own sense... the acting of the powerhouse cast was undeniably good, this film marks an acting milestone for all the actors in the film especially the three young ones... good, good, good... this type of movie could really uplift the thriving filipino movie industry... yes, i am satisfied with what i've seen and i got the value of the 110 pesos that i have taken out from my wallet... "Nasaan Ka Man" is a filipino masterpiece in its own sense... hats off to the whole production staff... i wouldn't be surprised if this film will grab lots of awards because it does deserve to be acclaimed critically...!

...and that was my "Nasaan Ka Man" experience... from "kaba" to satisfaction.

rating:

hinagpis... hinanakit...

2005-06-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

wala lang! miss ko na ang mga tao... ang tagal tagal na since nakakita ako ng mga kabarakada at iba pang malapit na kaibigan... haaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy....... nakaka-frustrate kasi ang dami naming plans ng mga kabarkada for the past summer vacation kaso 'ni isa walang natuloy... well busy naman kasi kaming lahat... may mga kanya-kanya kaming reponsibilidad na dapat punuan.... wala lang, nakakalungkot lang isipin na parang napaka-isolated na namin sa isa't isa... parang hindi ko na alam kung anong mga nangyayari sa kanila gayung dati naman nagagawa naming magkumustahan... kamusta na kaya sila?! ano na kayang mga itsura nila?! haaayyy... ndi ko alam, kaya nga gusto kong malaman eh... sana makita ko na sila ulit... makausap... o kahit maramdaman ko man lamang na nandiyan pa sila... na kaibigan ko pa sila... sana walang nagbago kahit alam ko naman na marami ng naging pagbabago... ayaw ko lang talagang tanggapin... cyempre kahit ganoon tuloy pa rin ang buhay kasi kailangan eh... kailangang magaral... kailangang mabuhay... peste! pero ano naman ang saysay ng buhay kung maraming kulang... mga kakulangan na walang kasiguraduhan kung kelan mapupunan... haaayyy...... haayyy... magparamdam naman kayo kasi kaibigan ko kayo...kailangan ko kayo...

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sa mga UP pips naman (anna, nina, liane, andre' and erika).... miss ko na din kayo, as in sobra.... peste kasi sked ko this sem, walang break pero gsuto ko lang na ipaalam sa inyo na buhay pa ako... surviving ika nga... 3rd week pa lang eh namamatay na ako sa mga requirements at assignments pero kaya pa... sana kayo ok pa naman... kaya natin 'to! basta...miss ko na kayo.... sana one of this days eh, magkitakita tayo at makakain uli ng sama-sama.... haaayyyy... basta... ingat kayo.... gawin nating masaya ang sem na 'to kahit hindi nagkukrus ang ating mga landas sa malawak na lupain ng UNIBERSIDAD NG PILIPINAS!

wow!

2005-06-06T07:59:00.000+08:00

so happy to have passed MATH 17 on my first take... and as a bonus, i got a more than passing grade... it was a dream come true... i guess every student wants to pass a subject like math 17 without getting through a lot of troubles... i guess i was just fortunate that almost everything went right for me... i had a good teacher, i had a drive to really pass the subject, i had the right amount of enthusiasm to study the lessons that were imparted to us by our teacher... wow, everything went on smoothly for me! god must have sent an angel to guide me and he must have poured down the right amount of intellect over me to help me get through....wow! thank you LORD GOD for answering my prayers! classmates, friends...thank you for all the support and the prayers.... it surely worked wonders for me!

don't want to be forever blue...

2005-05-25T13:16:00.000+08:00

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"dre', bakit may natirang kang-kong?"

2005-05-25T08:15:00.000+08:00

Sinigang: A soup flavored with tamarind and
includes meat or fish with various veggies

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getaway

2005-05-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

We're going to Puerto Galera this coming Sunday...

...and I am so excited!!!

at long last

2005-05-23T14:08:00.000+08:00

tapos na po...
tapos na po...
tapos na po...
tapos na po ang summer class ko sa math 17...

although hindi pa talaga tapos dahil tomorrow pa ang finals namin... ok na yun kasi isang exam na lang and i think naman na enough yung natutunan ko nung buong summer para makapasa ako... i've promised myself that i will do my best to pass... and i've told myself many times that failing is not an option... siguro enough na reason na yun para galingan ko at pumasa...... sana talaga!

psssst.... take a look inside my heart

2005-04-21T08:40:00.000+08:00

It isnt easy to show you what you mean to me
Im not the kind with all the moves
The way im feelin' goes beyond what you can see
Im crazy about you,crazy 'bout you

I havent tried to impress you by the things i do
That isnt really how i am
I'd rather let my dreams be open up to you
So you'll understand,you'll understand

take a look inside my heart and you'll see
I have so much love to give believe in me
Take a look inside my heart,share my love
Take a look in my heart

Nobody ever is perfect even if they try
There maybe times i let you down
And when i do i hope you'll turn my heart around
By reaching inside,reaching inside

Im gonna promise you honestly I'll always care
Thats what my love has come here for
And everytime i smile you know there's something more
Im waiting to share,wanting to share

Take a look inside my heart and you'll see
I have so much love to give believe in me
Take a look inside my heart,share my love
Take a look here in my heart

the song tells it all... i am not the type of guy who tries to impress a girl with suave moves and sweet words... i'm not that demonstrative to be able to show a girl how i really feel... i can say that i am afraid to show my true feelings because i may not be taken seriously for the reason that i am not really perceived as a serious individual... i love to love but i am afraid of the possibility that i may not be loved by the person that i have fallen for... haaayyy... all i can do is to ak the girl to take a look inside my heart... that way she can really see how i really feel for her... to that one special girl that i have feelings for right now... i have one thing for you... "i love you"... "i may not be ready yet to tell you about my true feelings because i am afraid of so many things... but one thing's for sure, i can always let you take a look inside my heart... hope you believe in my love and together let us share a life filled with love and happiness...together let us make this life worth living..."

i love you... this is all i know...

2005-04-19T14:24:00.000+08:00

...you always ask me
those words i say
and telling me what it means to me

every single day
you always act this way
for how many times i told you
i love you
for this is all i know

come to me and hold me
and you will see
the love i give
for you still hold the key

every single day
you always act this way
for how many times i told you
i love you
for this is all i know

i'll never go far away from you
even the sky will tell you
that i need you so
for this is all i know
i'll never go far away from you...

sometimes it is true that we feel something special but we don't know the true reason for why we feel that way... love is one special feeling that doesn't need an explanation... we love because we want to... it is a very sudden feeling... no buts, no ifs... love is a genuine feeling... it is not forced nor imposed... love just comes at the right time, in an enviromnent that is conducive for such a feeling to flourish... love is an omnipresent feeling... it is just around us... waiting to be felt by people who are just roaming around this place called earth... love is a bitterwseet feeling because it could make a person smile and cry at thse same time but contadicting as it may seem... love is indeed one of the greatest feelings that can be experienced by humanity...

UNIVERSITY OF PILA este PHILIPPINES pala

2005-04-15T08:17:00.000+08:00

ngek! yesterday was the scheduled registration for the summer classes of the year 2005... and guess what, it took me one whole day to finish enrolling for only one subject... man, it was super tiring... imagine, i arrived at school at around 6:30 in the morning, all because i thought that the registration will start in the morning but i was completely wrong... it started during the hottest part of the day, the registration for regular students (those who are not graduating this summer or next semster) started at 1:30 in the afternoon... f**k! i should have went to school at a much later time...! sobrang sayang yung time na wala namang ginagawa... i should have slept more.....grrr....! anyways, sobrang saya din naman kasi i got my grades na, and it was so satisfying to see that all my hard work paid off! grabe! so happy talaga... the past sem was my best so far, in terms of performance no doubt that it was really the best...! sobra...basta napagod lang talaga ako kahapon...pero thanks kay anna kasi sinamahan niya ako sa pila... sa eternal pila ng UP... hehehehehehehehehehe.....! sana pumasa ako ng math 17 this summer... please pray for me! hehehehehehehehehehehehehe... promise, i'll do my best to pass..... so help me GOD!

ito sana ang awit ng ating BARKADA

2005-04-11T09:03:00.000+08:00

...Nakasimangot ka na lang palagi
Parang ikaw lang ang nagmamay-ari
Ng lahat ng sama ng loob
Pagmumukha mo ay hindi maipinta
Nakalimutan mo na bang tumawa
Eh, sumasayad na ang nguso mo sa lupa

Kahit sino pa man ang may kagagawan
Ng iyong pagkabigo
Ay isipin na lang na ang buhay
Kung minsan ay nagbibiro
Nandirito kami, ang barkada mong tunay
Aawit sa iyo
Sa lungkot at ligaya, hirap at ginhawa
Kami'y kasama mo
O ikaw naman

Kung sa pag-ibig may pinagawayan
Kung salapi ay huwag nang pag-usapan
Tayo'y 'di nagbibilangan
Kung ang problema mo'y magkatambakan
ang mga utang 'dio na mabayaran
Lahat ng bagay ay nadadaan sa usapan

Kasama mo...
Kasama mo...
Kasama mo...

love = deep friendship

2005-04-09T09:24:00.000+08:00

Your Love Style is Storge

For you, love and friendship are almost the same thing
And your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind
(You've been known to still have connections with exes)
But sometimes your love is not the most passionate
Leap before you look, and you'll find that fire you crave

turn pain into hope

2005-04-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

...i've been in love, a time or two
i've seen the world, when i'm with you
i wanna fly and spread my wings
i don't wanna cry, i wanna sing
i wanna live and take a chance
i'm not afraid to love again
i wanna fall, fall for you
and i want you to fall for me too...

i really hope that i have already moved on... i really hope that i am now ready to take another chance with love... i really hope that i am completely ready to take the challenge of finding somebody that i could truly love... to find a completely new individual with whom i can share my whole being with... i know that the world is a very big playground for people like me... people who are trying to find their true purpose in life... people who are trying to find their one true love... i hope that i am really ready to do all those things... my mind is open to a lot of possibilities... i am trying to see everything that is positive in life... i believe that i have to live life in the most positive way possible... i believe that i need to be happy... life is indeed short for me to succumb myself in misery... i need to enjoy the best things that life has to offer... i need to live and love again... i need to take a chance... i need to take a risk... nobody knows about what the future holds... it's all up to me to discover what's in store for me... i need to give myself a chance to experience love... a love that will help inspire me to live life in its fullest... to that special lady... whoever you may be... i wanna fall for you... and i only have one question, "will you fall for me too...?!"

snapshots

2005-04-07T14:32:00.000+08:00

snapshots from diane's debut

from left (clockwise): leSter, pauLo, baRbs; the debutante & i; me, my sister & my brother-in-law; fat & thin ft. leSter and alBert

p... a.... i... n... f... u... l...= PAINFUL

2005-04-07T13:54:00.000+08:00

...wish I could be the one
the one who could give you love
the kind of love you really need
wish I could say to you
that I'll always stay with you
but baby that's not me
you need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
oh I could say that I'll be all you need
but that would be a lie
i know i'd only hurt you
I know i'd only make you cry
i'm not the one you're needing
i love you, goodbye...

leaving someone when you love someone
is the hardest thing to do
when you love someone as much as i love you

oh i don't wanna leave you
baby it tears me up inside
but i'll never be the one you're needing
i love you, goodbye...

OUCH! i can still feel the pain here inside my heart... i have loved, i was loved but everything ended up so soon... we were just starting to do it better the second time around but a certain force of nature just didn't let us enjoy and experience love for a much longer time... we really didn't have the chance to know what we really feel for each other(that's how i feel, i don't know for her...), there was a lot for us to discover but we were just given a little time... a short time that became even shorter due to our personal commitments... the both us live a life of work... we focus to much on our work that we didn't give much time for our personal longings... we became so confident about our love that we forgot to do things that will certainly enhance our relationship... maybe, love didn't really become a priority for the both of us because we tend to think about so many things, we like to venture to new horizons that we forgot to look at where we were back then... sad..?! yes, definitely... but i don't have to be sad forever... because i know for a fact... that we have loved each other once in our lives... and we may be apart right now but who knows if the wind will blow us back to each other's arms in the near or far future... i'll het her do her thing... i'll be more than glad to see her happy as she shares her life with somebody new... because i know that i have to do the same thing... i have to go on with my life... life is too short for me to live in misery... i have to be happy not only for myself but for the people that surround me as well... i will not close my door but i think that i have to say this... I LOVE YOU... GOODBYE... til the next time we hold each other's hands

THANK YOU

2005-04-07T09:18:00.000+08:00

i would just like to thank everyone who has been a part of my 19 years of existence here on earth... for all the people who have given me unconditional love and support... thank you to those who have taken time off for me so that they could help in guiding me in my so called journey... thank you so much... thank you for helping me become the person that i am today... your presence in my life is definitely important and i am very much thankful to the Lord that he has given me good people whom i can share my life with... a million thanks to all of you.

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Thank you for teaching me how to love
Showing me what the world means
What I've been dreamin' of
And now I know, there is nothing that I could not do
Thanks to You

For teaching me how to feel
Showing me my emotions
Letting me know what's real
From what is not
What I've got is more that I'd ever hoped for
And a lot of what I hope for is
Thanks to you

No mountain, no valley
No time, no space
No heartache, no heartbreak
No fall from grace
Can't stop me from believing
That my love will pull me through
Thanks to You

For teaching me how to live
Putting things in perspective
Teaching me how to give
And how to take
No mistake
We were put here together
And if I breakdown
Forgive me but it's true
That I'm aching with the love I feel inside
Thanks to You
Thanks to you
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THANKS TO YOU
by
Tyler Collins

SUBIC: a collection of life's bests

2005-04-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

it was the summertime, when we fell in love, it was the summertime, when heaven shined on us, it was the summertime, baby there is nothing like the summertime

our trip to subic was definitely a great way to start the summer vacation of the year 2005... the trip was extremely fun, i had a high time with my family, my cousins, my aunts & uncles... whew... being at the beach is definetely a cool way to enjoy summer... doing activities under the sun is definietly a good way to beat the scorching summer heat

agree?!

2005-04-06T10:04:00.000+08:00

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen
Or lend a shoulder to cry on
You're there through thick and thin
Many people consider you their "best friend"!

i'm not getting any younger... (age that is but not with my looks)

2005-04-06T09:17:00.000+08:00

it's my birth anniversary tomorrow... and i'm happy because i am stepping a notch further in this adventure called life. yes, i may be climbing up the ladder but i am not yet sure if i can really face the challenges that i may come into contact with in the coming years...i hope and i pray that all the good things may come my way... friends, please help me become better...please help me achieve all my goals... and please help me make my 19th year in this world happy and unforgettable...

isn't she lovely... isn't she wonderful...

2005-04-06T09:00:00.000+08:00

Jeon Ji Hyun
crush ko to...

Isn't she lovely
Isn't she wonderful
Isn't she precious
Less than one minute old
I never thought through love we'd be
Making one as lovely as she
But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she pretty
Truly the angel's best
Boy, I'm so happy
We have been heaven blessed
I can't believe what God has done
Through us he's given life to one
But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she lovely
Life and love are the same
Life is Aisha
The meaning of her name
Londie, it could have not been done
Without you who conceived the one
That's so very lovely made from love
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ISN'T SHE LOVELY
by
Stevie Wonder

WINDSTRUCK

2005-04-06T08:21:00.000+08:00

paulo and i went to ruins last friday... he told me that i should watch the movie "MY SASSY GIRL" because it was good daw... pero dapat daw mauna kong panoorin yung "WINDSTRUCK" kasi nga parang prequel daw yun... i wasn't really sure if i should believe him or what because i'm not really into asian films neither am i a fan of the koreanovelas that have invaded our television screens after the very phenomenal METEOR GARDEN... i was unsure of what to do... although i have heard a lot about the film MY SASSY GIRL, i was not really excited to watch it... i have to admit that i was intrigued by its content but that was about it... it was purely curiousity... so i followed paulo's advice, i watched WINDSTRUCK before the raved MY SASSY GIRL and i can say that i was not dissapointed... yeah it was good... it was a feel-good movie... there is a good mix of laughs and tears... and it was also inspiring because the movie goes to show that love is just around us, we don't know when's the time that it will come to us... love can capture your heart even in the most unlikely situation, even in the most unexpected event in your life... the movie is indeed a proof that love moves in mysterious ways... profound isn't it? well... all in all, the movie was great. it's a must-see even though for those who are not into the asian-thing craze because it's one movie that can capture yourt heart and rekindle the romantic-side in you.

rating:

the perfect one for me?

2005-04-06T08:00:00.000+08:00

GUYS... Find a girl who calls you baby faced
instead of hot or sexy who can't stand it when you
hang up on her and calls right back, who would sit
there for hours looking into your eyes, who doesn't
care what you look like, but what's inside counts
the most, Who looks at you with the twinkle in her
eyes and kisses you on the cheek instead of the
lips, Wants to be with you in public, even if you
wear those old grass stained and ripped pants
with the bleached jersey like always, Wait for the
girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness
and joy, who makes you smile just by knowing
she loves you back. Wait for the girl who you give
piggy back rides to in public and she still is in
view of her friends, while she gets off and you hear
her go: "you're the one for me, for always"

which song should my heart sing?

2005-03-15T10:35:00.000+08:00

i'm in a dilemma right now... i don't know what do... i don't know how should i go about the things that are happening in my life... i don't know what should i feel towards the people that surrounds me... i don't know how to manage my feelings... i don't know how to teach my heart decide on whom to love... "Which song should my heart sing?", that is the question.

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We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time

Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay
But

Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong with me

Sometimes goodbyes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home
And

Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so

We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause

Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong
With me
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SOMEWHER DOWN THE ROAD
by
Barry Manilow
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or
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Please don't ask me what am i thinking
It's about you
And please don't ask me
I never can see you
What can i do
My first impulse is to run to your side
My heart's not free, and so i must hide
Please don't ask me
What i'm gonna say to you
I toss and turn
Can't sleep at night
It's worrying me, I go to bed
Turn out the light
But your face i see
It only hurts
The more i pretend
That we could ever
Be more than friends
Please don't ask me
Why I'm so in love with you
You could easily make me happy
That I know
But I try my best to never tell you so
I will sing to you my love songs
And pretend but I'll keep my distance right down
To the end
Please don't ask me why I'm not talking
I just can't explain
And please don't ask me
Why I go walking out in the rain
I could not live the lie it would take
To have you here would be a mistake
Please don't ask me
Why I'm so in love with you
No please don't ask me
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PLEASE DON'T ASK ME
by
John Farnham

on a high...

2005-03-15T10:09:00.000+08:00

sobra! i'm really feeling ecstatic right now (actually since last friday pa ako ganito) kasi naman, my teacher in GEOG 111 gave me a "shining, shimmering, splendid" 1 as in UNO! grabe... never ever did i think that i could get a grade as high as that from him... for the rest of the semester i thought that the highest rating that i could get from him was a dos or even lower but i was wrong, i was totally wrong... all my efforts were proven worthy... it was a great culmination for a tough subject like GEOG 111! my GOD...i'm so happy... ipagpapamisa ko talaga si SIR SIA SU... hehehehehehehe...naguiguilty nga ako kasi isinumpa ko siya for a week kasi sobrang pinhirapan niya kami and it seemed like he was having fun seeing us (as in the whole class, and not only myself) suffer... pero hindi pala... mabait naman pala siya ang considerate pa... well, well... i just hope that i will get the same grade in all of my remaining subjects... hahahahahahaha... i hope! dream on leSter!

life's a beach

2005-03-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
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TRUE COLORS
by
Phil Collins

hitch!

2005-03-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

last monday, i decided to watch a movie, simply because i needed to kill time... i went to eastwood cinemas all by myself to catch the latest in the silverscreen productions... i was not sure of what movie to watch at that time, my choices were hitch and million dollar baby... i chose HITCH over the critically-acclaimed and oscar-winning Million Dollar Baby because i wanted to have fun... i think the oscar-nominated Will Smith can give me back the value of my 131 pesos... indeed,the movie gave me a few laughs because of its intelligent humor provided by the uncanny behavior/acting of the actors... it was also heart-warming because of the light romance that almost everyone could relate to... the movie was so down-to-earth and yes, entertaining... although not as superb as other "kilig" movies in the past, i believe HITCH is definitely a feel-good movie to watch...

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baby... baby... baby... i'm down on bended knees

2005-03-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

if there is one song that could truly express how i feel right now, i think that this is got to be it... so many questions are going around my mind and sometimes it becomes tiring to find answers to those questions but i'm not giving up, i'm holding on because i simply want to... i want to prove to you, my baby, that i do love you still and i am willing to do anything to win you back... all i'm asking for is another chance, another chance to share with you this wonderful thing called "LOVE"

here i am... asking you... answer my call
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You're still captivating even though it's been so long
You used to love me tell me baby what went wrong
'Cause now you march to the beat of a different song

Try to understand that we needed space
But everywhere I turn I see your face
I've been waiting for you to come home
'Cause I don't want to be alone
I still love you

Why did you take away your love
When did you think to just give up
How am I supposed to carry on now
Without you
You are my light

I have changed girl since I last saw you
When you left you don't know what you put me through
But my heart's still racing just being next to you

I can't escape the magic in your eyes
Is there a way to make you realize
There's no one more special to my heart
But you want us to be apart
I still love you

Why did you take away your love, baby
When did you think to just give up, yea
How am I supposed to carry on now
Without you

You were my world
You meant everything to me
You're the air I breathe
The song I sing
You were my queen, I was your king
But if we can try to work it
We'll show the world what love is about
Baby come on cause I can't take no more
Of this loneliness
And emptiness

Why did you take away your love
When did you think to just give up
How am I supposed to carry on now
Without you

Why did you take away your love
When did you think to just give up
How am I supposed to carry on
Without you
You are my
You are my light
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WHY, WHEN, HOW
by
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE

i don't want to be alone...

2005-03-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

eto ako nakaupo nalaman sa isang tabi,
nag-iisip ng mga kung anu-anong mga bagay
bagay na may katuturan at meron din namang wala,
sa totoo lang hindi lang ngayon ako nagkaganito,
ang kalungkutan, ang pagkalumbay ay nararamdaman ko
kasabay ng lamig ng mga nakalipas na gabi...

bakit? paano?
iyan na lang parati ang mga katanungan na nasasaisip ko...
ilang mga araw at gabi na ang nakalipas ngunit ang mga
kasagutan ay wala pa rin sa mga kamay, utak at puso ko...
kaakibat ng mga "bakit?" at "paano?" ay ang tanong na "kailan?"
kailan kaya ako liligaya...
kailan kaya ako makadaraam ng isang pag-ibig na pipilitin kong
buhayin magpakailanman...
kailan kaya ako makararanas ng mga yakap at pagkalinga na siyang pilit
papatay sa lamig at kalungkutan ng mga madidilim na gabi...
kailan ka kaya mapapasaakin?
kailang ka kaya babalik sa akin?
kailan kaya kitang muling mahahagkan at masasabihan ng
"MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA...."?
kailan kaya?

sa isang sulok na ito ng mundo, ipagpapatuloy ko ang aking pag-iisip
at patuloy ko ring itatanong sa Diyos at sa aking saril,
"KAILAN KAYA?"

by leSter
palma hall, up diliman

corregidor: fun under the sun

2005-03-06T15:33:00.000+08:00

It Feels Like Yesterday, I Was Holding You In My Arms, And Nothing Mattered We Used To Drift Away, To Another Place, To Another Time Those Were The Best Days Of My Life I Remember It So Well, We Used To Have, Such Good Times, Now I Wish You Would Come Back Again Suddenly It Feels So Real, Felt A Turning Inside, Going Round & Round In My Mind I Wish I Could Turn Back The Time, And Go To That Place When You & I Were One, Oh No

hmmm... is this true? tell me can this be real?

2005-03-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

You are a creative and expressive lover - a true romantic at heart.
An introspective soul, you know exactly how your ideal relationship should be.
But if you don't get that ideal, you tend to get a bit pouty and dramatic.
You need someone who can roll with the punches, that's for sure!
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my brain... my brain... is 75% water...oops!

2005-03-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

finally...oops.

2005-03-04T18:12:00.000+08:00

my geography 111 exam is finally over... oops, not yet! everyone in our class did not have a chance to finish the exam because it is too long, it was not appropriate for a one and half hour testing time... too much pressure was vested upon us because sir sia su kept on talking while we were taking the exam, he kept on saying so many things and it was so distracting.. to be honest i was really pissed during the exam... i can't concentrate on answering the questions because his voice was so irritating... maybe that is one reason why i didn't really have the best & most sensible answers to the questions... grrr... i just hope that i will pass the exam because i really don't want to take the final exam.... haayy.. it finally over...oops.. i forgot, i'm (we) not yet done with the exam because there is still a take home part.... grrr... but that's okay... i know i'll find a way to have answers to those questions.... god bless to me and my classmates....

who said, "boys don't cry"?

2005-03-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

this song really makes my heart beat faster
this song really makes my tears fall
this song really makes me want to fall in love...
this song really shows my present sentiments...
in deed, this song makes me ask the question...
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WHAT ABOUT LOVE?

what if i took my time to love you?
what if i put no one above you?
what if i did the things
that really mattered?
what if i ran through
hoops of disaster?

no one would care if
we never made it
we're in this alone
so why don't we face it
there is no room to
blame one another
we just need time to
forgive each other

what about love?
what about feeling?
what about all the things that make life worth living?
what about faith?
what about trust?
and tell me baby...what about us?

how can I give this
love a new beginning?
how can I stop the rain?
it's never ending
how do I keep my soul believing?
memories of how we
should be keep calling

i'll take the rivers rise
i'll take the happy times
i'll take the moments of disaster
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by LEMAR

ce n'est pas mon défaut --- IT IS NOT MY FAULT

2005-03-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

ang sarap magmahal noh?

kahit minsan nasasaktan ka na...
OK lang!

kahit minsan binabalewala ka...
d bale lang!

kahit minsan nagiging tanga ka...
ayos lang!

d mo naman kasalanan yun diba?

kasi

NAGMAHAL KA LANG...

i'm only HUMAN

2005-02-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

eto nalaman ako nalilito
hindi maintindihan ang mga pangyayari sa buhay kong ito
ang pagkalito ko na ito ay hindi kailan man makatutulong upang aking malutas ang mga kasalukuyang problema ko
sabagay, sino ba naman ako para magreklamo kung nakadaranas ako ng ganito...
tao lang naman ako at nakatadhanang maramdaman ko ang puot at hirap ng buhay kong ito...
ang daming nangyayari na hindi ko maintindihan pero patuloy ko paring tinatanto...
ang buhay nga naman 'no
tanong ko lang, bakit ninyo ako ginagawa sa akin ang mga bagay na ganito?
may galit ba kayo o sadyang niloloko niyo lang ako?!

ikaw alam kong hindi ka galit sa akin at lalung lalo namang ako ay hindi mo pinaglalaruan...
ngunit sadyang iba ang nararamdaman tuwing ika'y lumalapit at nagpaparamdam sa akin, lalu lang akong nasasaktan dahil alam kong ang magkaroon ng "tayo" ay hindi puwede sa ngayon at sa kinabukasan naman ay wala paring kasiguraduhan...
paano ko ba magagawa na ang sa iyong mahiwagang pationg ay hindi ako mahulog at makulong...?!

ikaw naman babaeng mahal ko...
mahal na nga kita kasi ang nasasaisip ko na lang ay parating ikaw...
ang malaking bahagi ng mga problema ko ay kung hindi man ikaw ay parati na lang may kinalaman sa iyo... sa isip ko ay talaga namang nanduruon ka, at sa puso ko nama'y 'ngalan mo ang nakaukit...
hindi ko lam ngunit parang sadyang mapait lang ang kapalaran para sa akin, para sa ating dalawa...
dahil ang konsepto ata ng pag-ibig ay hindi pa muling nabubuhay sa iyo...
ang magkaroon ng "tayo" ay wala pa sa mga bagay na sa kasalukuyan ay iniisip mo...
kapag ako ay nagtatanong ay wala ka man lamang sagot...
kapag ako ay nagsasalita ay pawang walang nakikinig...
at kapag ikaw ay aking tinititigan ay pawang wala kang pakialam...
manhid ka ba o sadyang gusto mo lang akong bawian at saktan... o talagang hindi mo lang ako napapansin dahil ang mga mata mo ay sarado sa mga bagay na ganito...?!
alam kong may mga nagawa ako akong mali noong araw, pero ganoon ba ito kalaki para ang ganitong poot ang sa akin ay ipadama mo?
bakit mo ako ginaganito? kung ang tanging hiling ko lang naman ay ang mahalin mo ako?
hirap na ako sa iyo pero ang pagsuko ay hindi kailan man ko gagawin... pagkat ang mahalin ka ay isang bagay na malugod kong gagawin...
ang sa akin lang naman ay tulungan mo naman akong patuloy kang mahalin ng lubusan... tulong at pagmamahal lang talaga ang hiling ko buhat sa iyo, mahal ko...

DITO SA ISANG MUMUNTING SULOK NG MUNDO AY PIPILITIN KONG ALAMIN KUNG "BAKIT AT PAANO"?

by leSter
0730H as lobby

je m'ennuie de vous

2005-02-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

to see you when i wake up, is a gift i didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same, as i do, is a three-fold utopian dream
you do something to me
that i can't explain
so would i be out of line, if i said
I MISS YOU.

i see your picture, i smell your skin on, the empty pillow next to mine
you have only been gone ten days, but already i am wasting away
i know i'll see you again
whether far or soon
but i need you to know, that i care
and I MISS YOU

liwanag sa dilim

2005-02-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

darkness will fall

darkness will fade

let the light shine upon me

take a LOOK at me now...

2005-02-24T16:58:00.000+08:00

...i wish i could just make you turn around...

turn around and see me cry...

there's so much i need to say to you...

so many reasons why...

you're the only one who really knew me at all...
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life oh life oh life...
i am enjoying my life now...
but i know that something is really missing...
there is an empty space in my heart...
a part of my identity is not yet defined for some strange reason...
some people tell me to move on and just try to find somebody else to love...
but i can't seem to that...
i know that it hurts but i am not losing hope...
i don't have any clear sign of what's to happen...
i am completely clueless...
am i gonna lose or win... that's my question...
an answer is yet to be found...
but i'm not in a hurry...
i am willing to wait even if it is for a long time...
they say that a prize awaits for someone who is patient...
i'm not sure if it's true...
i'll wait... that's for sure...
whatever comes around... goes around...
i'll just do my thing because this is my LIFE...
i'll live it the way, i want it to be lived...

i need you...

2005-02-22T10:29:00.000+08:00

my morning starts to shine
with teardrops in my eyes
and here I am alone starting to realize
that my days would be brighter
if I could learn to hide
the feeling that I have for you
keeps haunting me inside

then my days begin
with simple thoughts of you
hoping that tomorrow will be ME and YOU
sharing dreams with each other
and making them come true
holding one another, saying all I need is YOU

but will you say that you love me
and show me that you care
say when I need you
you will always be there
but if you go and leave me
this I swear is true
MY LOVE will always be with you

now my nights would end
with just one wish, that's you
to hold me in the dark
and help me make it through
'cause the pain that's inside me
would simply melt away
if I had you here with me
and promise me you'd stay

but will you say that you love me
and show me that you care
say when I need you
you will always be there
but if you go and leave me
this I swear is true
MY LOVE will always be with you

but will you say that you love me
and show me that you care
say when I need you
you will always be there
but if you go and leave me
this I swear is true
MY LOVE will always be with you
MY LOVE will always
MY LOVE will always ooh, ooh
MY LOVE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU

why?!

2005-02-22T09:53:00.000+08:00

hindi ko maintindihan ang buhay...
bakit ba ganun...
kung ano pa ang gusto natin yun pa ang siyang hindi natin makuha...
kung ano pa ang mahalaga para sa atin eh yun pa ang hindi natin mapasakamay...
madaya ba talaga ang buhay, o sadyang ganon lang talaga ang kapalaran ng bawat nilalang...

hindi ko alam kung ano ang nararamdaman ko sa kasalukuyan...
hindi ako malungkot pero hindi naman din ako masayang-masaya...
tulad nga ng sabi ko sa bestfriend ko kagabi, "alam mo yun, kaya pa naman ngumiti kaso marami lang talagang kailangang gawin para sa school at sa kung anuano pa..."

sa aming pag-uusap kagabi... lalo kong namiss si karen at ang iba naming mga kabarkada... isa yun sa mga gusto kong mangyari, ang makita silang lahat, ang makausap sila ng matino, makipagtawanan kasama silang lahat... pero sadyang pinaglalaruan ata kami ng panahon... parang napakalabo ng magkitakita kami sa ngayon dahil lahat kami ay abala sa mga kanya-kanya naming gawain sa eskwelahan, atbp.
...haaay... sana dumating na yung araw na makumpleto ulitkami sa isang lugar at panahon...
"kasalanan bang umibig ka ng lubusan...?!"
isa pa ito sa mga iniisip ko sa ngayon...
bakit ganoon, kung sino pa talaga yung talagang mahal ko siya namang lumalayo sa akin...
ang tanging gusto ko lang naman ay magmahal, ibahagi ang kung anong meron ako sa isang taong alam kong karapatdapat na tumanggap ng aking pagmamahal...
gusto ko lang naman na iparamdam na, "eto ako buhay pa!" at magtanong ng "ikaw ba buhay pa? kamusta ka na mahal ko?"
pero bakit parang hindi ko magawa.... bakit parang bawal ko yung gawin...?
pero bakit kaya siya lumalayo sa akin...?
sa tuwing ako ay lumalapit, siya ay lumalayo...
ano ba...? mahal nga kita... pero nahihirapan ako...
tama yun sabi ng isa kong kaibigan ko... "Do you ever look back and think "how could I love her," then you remember, "..how could I not?"
madaling isipin kong bakit kita minamahal pero mas mahirap humanap ng dahilan kung paano kita hindi mamahalin...
mahirap pero patuloy ko siyang mamahalin... maghihintay ako... yan ang dapat niyang asahan... tapat ako... sana pagdating ng panahon kung ito man ay darating ay maging tapat din ang pag-ibig niya sa akin...

...eto pa ang isa... gusto ko ng magpahinga pero hindi puwede... napaka daming kailangang gawin... paper dito, paper diyan, assignment dito, quiz diyan, exam dito, project diyan... paano ka ba naman magpapahinga kung ang panahon naman ang tumututol dito... sana matapos na ang lahat ng mga mabibigat na pahirap sa mundo... hindi ko naman sinasabi ng ayaw ko ng pagsubok pero gusto ko naman na mero akong kahit konting panahon para tumigil at ipikit ang aking mga mata... pagod na ako, yan ang totoo pero tuloy pa rin ako sa pakikibaka... kailangan eh... gusto kong guminhawa ang kinabukasan ko eh... haaayyyyy...

bakit...?!
hindi ko rin alam...
siguro, i just need to stop and think...

again...

2005-02-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

muling MAHALIN,
'di kakayaning ika'y mawala sa aking piling,
MULING tanggapin, MULING mahalin,
ika'y MAGBALIK, magtiwalang muli,
muling IBALIK ANG PAG-IBIG na dati'y sa atin...

ba't ‘di mo pagbigyan ang PAG-IBIG ko
tapat naman ang puso ko sa ‘yo
BIGYAN sana ako kahit konting pagkakataon
ba't ‘di mo pagbigyan ang pag-ibig ko
LAHAT ay gagawin para sa ‘yo
nakikiusap sa konting pagkakataong
MAHALIN MO...

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a·gain (adv.): Once more; anew: Try again.

mundong IBABAW...

2005-02-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

haaayyy...
miss ko na yung mga tao sa taas...

yung mga kulitan...yung mga kalokohan...

mga iyakan...

ang mga gabing walang tulugan...

ang mga tawanang walang humpay...

araw ng PASABOG

2005-02-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

pasabog ng bombapasabog ng pag-ibigpasabog ng galit at pighati

sobra, maraming malalaking pasabog ang nangyari sa araw ng mga puso... iba ibang klase... niyanig ang ating bansa ng mga pagsabog na naganap sa davao, general santos at sa ayala... sino ang may kagagawan?! aba, malay ko?! bakit nangyari ang ganun?! aba, malay ko?! hindi sa wala akong pakialam, natatakot ako at may mga ganitong pangyayari sa ating bayan pero sa totoo lang wala naman talaga akong alam kung bakit kailangan gawin iyon ng kung sino mang grupo... marahil ay gusto lang nilang imulat ang mga mata ng sambayanan na maraming nakatambang karahasan sa paligid nila, na sa kahit anong oras ay maaring may masamang mangyari sa bawat isa sa atin... pero mali, hindi dapat sa ganoong paraan ipinapakita ang mga ganung bagay... araw ng pag-ibig, nagkalata ng mga taong nagmamahalan sa bawat sulok ng ating bansa... ang araw ng pag-ibig ay hindi lamang para sa mga magsing-irog o mga mag-asawa ngunit para ito sa lahat ng mga taong nakakaramdam ng pagmamahal sa kanilang mga puso... hahaha... pagsabog naman ng pighati ang naganap dito sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas ng nagpasya ang mga estudyante na isambulat ang kanilang mga mga nararamdaman tungkol sa mga samu't saring isyu tulad ng napakalakiing budget cut at pagtaas ng "value-added tax"... bilang estudyante, nakakainis kung maipapatupad ang mga ganitong panukala... gustuhin ko mang ipaglaban ang aking mga nararamdaman ay natatakot ako dahil hindi ko naman alam kung may patutunguhan ang aking mga gagawing paglaban... hindi naman talaga natin alam kung tayo bang mga estudyante ay pakikinggan ng mga mambabatas... haayyyy...

mga explosibong pagsabog...
nakayayanig...nakaaantig...

dream ON...

2005-02-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

mula noon hanggang ngayon,
ay nagmamahal sa’yo
sabihin mo at gagawin anumang naisin mo
at ‘di mo mapansin ang aking damdamin
sa panaginip na lang ba makakapiling

pangarap ko’y ikaw,
waring bituin laging tinatanaw
PANGARAP KO'Y IKAW,
pag-ibig mo’y kailan makakamtan
hindi magbabago, maghihintay sa’yo
pagkat ang puso ko’y may nag-iisang ikaw

sakaling dumating,
ang panahon na ako’y ibigin mo
iingatan ko ang PUSO mo
‘yan ang pangako ko
dinggin mo lang ang aking hiling
hanggang wakas ika’y mamahalin

pangarap ko’y ikaw,
waring bituin laging tinatanaw
pangarap ko’y ikaw,
pag-ibig mo’y kailan makakamtan
hindi magbabago, maghihintay sa’yo
pagkat ang puso ko’y MAY NAG-IISANG IKAW
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lahat tayo ay nangangarap na makatagpo ng isang tao na ating iibigin...
at mamahalin tayo ng lubusan bilang kapalit...
ginagawa natin ito dahil...
walang masama sa MANGARAP, libre ito?!
bakit hindi?!
BONUS na lang talaga...
kapag ang mga pangarap natin ay natutupad.

BEING SINGLE vs. FALLING IN LOVE

2005-02-10T16:05:00.000+08:00

last night, a friend sent me this message:

dnt rsh n2 foling nluv, 4 luv nver runs out. evn f dy mock u coz ur cngle, jz tel dm ds: "GOD s jz bc writing d bst luv stry dt wil swip me off my feet."

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i became clueless upon reading the message... to be honest, i was not sure about why she sent me that message... but i know that one thing's true, the message was an eye-opener... very timely for valentine's day... us singles, really don't have to hurry LOVE because it will just come...

HOW I FEEL today...

2005-02-09T13:12:00.000+08:00

so far away, just thought
i'd let you know
how i feel today
the times we shared can't be
compared to anything
you had to go, you did what you had to do
and i had to stay
but i will always stay in love with you

i long for you but
i got used to it
there's nothing i can do
who knows why it had to hurt this way
i can't help but CRY
'coz you had to go, you did what you had to do
and i had to stay
but i will always stay in love with you

you had to go, you did what you had to do
and i had to stay, oh baby
OH, WON't YOU PLEASE COME BACK TO ME

and say that you love me too
and i swear to you
that i will always stay this way
whatever comes my way
YOU KNOW I'LL ALWAYS STAY IN LOVE WITH YOU
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have i moved on?! or not?!
probably not... still, i'm not yet over her
why?!
that i don't know, but one thing's for sure... i love her...
and yes, i'll always stay in love with her...
i have to admit that i'm not sure of what the future holds for me...
my chances are so unclear
but i just have to go with the flow... i'll fight... why not?!
everything is possible, right?!
just don't let the sun come down on me yet...

wait and see, i might give you the biggest surprise of your life...

oi!

2005-02-08T10:05:00.000+08:00

wala lang... it's only the second day of the week and i already feel tired... i already want the weekend to start... my god! i'll be with my UP barkada later (andre', erika, tins, etc.) and i'm pretty sure that i'll be grilled once more... 'no ba yan overcooked na ata ako eh...hehehehe... naku! may quiz nalaman ako sa climatology mamaya... bwisit! actually, ok lang naman na may quiz ang kaso medyo hindi ko naintindihan yung tinuro niya last week para kasing salita lang siya ng salita eh... bwahehehehe! ay bahala na po si batman, si superman... at kahit sino pang superhero...!

i'm no ANDRE'

2005-02-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

i'm not even close to who he really is...

As dictators go, you're kind of pathetic! Instead of military coup or systematic persecution to get power, you just happen to be the head of the only party in the UK that isn't totally worthless! While not very impressive it is none the less effective! You can do whatever the hell you like without any chance of getting voted out of office! People know that the only alternative would have them eating their children if they ever got back into power! However, you still think that you are as loved as you were when you were first elected into power… News flash for you: You're not!

What tin-pot dictator are you? Take the "What Dictator am I?" test at PoisonedMinds.com

eMOTIONS

2005-02-03T17:25:00.000+08:00

IT'S TAKING ME OVER...
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it's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
and who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?

and where are you now, now that I need you?
tears on my pillow wherever you go
i'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
you never see me fall apart

in the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
goodnight, goodnight

i'm there at your side,
i'm part of all the things you are
but you've got a part of someone else
you've got to find your shining star

hahaha...

2005-02-03T16:22:00.000+08:00

i'm not feeling really well today... my head aches, i think it has something to do with my eyes... parang lumalabo yung mata ko, or siguro kulang lang talaga ako sa tulog kasi mga 12 na ata ako nakatulog kagabi tapos i woke up very early (mga 400H ata) because i have a 7am class... haaayyy.... i feel so tired...

kanta ng puso

2005-02-02T17:08:00.000+08:00

ilang taon mula ng tayo'y magkahiwalay
magpasyang lumisan
ngunit bakit hanggang ngayo'y
ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap
ng puso at damdaming umiiyak
at tinatanong
BABALIK KA PA KAYA
sa buhay kong ito
at muling buhayin ang puso kong ito
ikaw lang ang minahal
nalaman kong may iba ka ng hinahalikan at niyayakap
habang ako'y hanggang ngayon
ginagamot ang sugat ng puso at damdaming umiiyak
at tinatanong
BABALIK KA PA KAYA
sa buhay kong ito
ikaw kang ang minahal
hanggang saan, hanggang kailan maghihintay ang puso
_____________________________________________________
tao lang ako
may kahinaan pagdating sa mga tukso
sana'y patawarin mo
dahil 'di ko alam kung paano
sa lahat ng nagawa, ikaw lang ang tama
bigla pang mawawala
at kung maibabalik ko lang ang nakaraan
'di ko sana sinayang
PAANO kung ayaw mo na, PAANO ba ang mag-isa
kung nasanay na aking mundo na umiikot lang sa'yo
PAANO ba ang limutin ka kung puso'y hinahanap ka
turuan mo naman ako dahil hindi alam kung paano
sa isang pagkakamali, 'di na maibabalik ang dati mong ngit
habang buhay na magsisisi dahil hindi ko alam kung paano
_____________________________________________________

'YAN ANG MGA KANTA NG PUSO KO...
MALUNGKOT?! OO.
KASI YUN ANG NADARAMA KO.
KAY DAMING TANONG, KAY KONTI NAMAN NG SAGOT.
HAAAYY... KANTA NA LANG KAYA TAYO?!

'tang 'nang buhay 'to

2005-02-01T14:26:00.000+08:00

haaaay...

oo yan din ang tanng ko sa sril ko,
kelan kaya darating yung panahon na magkakaroon ako ng
kayakap, kawentuhan at ng
mamahalin...

alam kung walang nakakaalam ng mga kasagutan sa mga ganitong tanong,
tanging ang Panginoon lamang ang may hawak ng susi upang mabuksan ang pinto
patungo sa mga paglilinaw...

nalulungkot ako... nasasaktan...
pero anu naman ang magagawa ko... may mahal ka ng iba, ako wala pa...
sabi mo naman "wag pa muna", tanong ko naman "kelan pa?!"

bakit ganun, kasalanan ba ang magmahal ng lubusan
yung tipong mas pipiliin mong maging masaya ang mahal mo na hindi mo naman siya kapiling...

mahirap pero kailangang tanggapin...
kung tayo? tayo!
kung hindi? bakit?! sino?!
ang hirap 'no, minsan tuloy sawa na akong sumama sa agos ng tubig
gusto kong gumawa ng sariling kong direksyon pero patuloy naman akong nagpapaagos...

tanga ba ako?! masama ba ako?!
alam kong hindi ako perfekto pero
alam ko din na meron akong ibubuga...

bulag ka ba?! manhid ka ba?!
o baka naman nananadya ka ang?!
oooops... hindi ako galit... mahal lang kita...
mahal kita kaya ako nagpapakatanga...
hintayin kita... laban lang...
'di ba?!

by leSter
020105 1029H tapat ng PH106

my treat

2005-01-30T14:10:00.000+08:00

a feast for your eyes...

the new havaianas ad?!

tagaytay getaway: taal volcano pic... hazy but beautiful

'la lang, just another picture of myself but this one's very different... very dramatic, isn't it?!

it's really a big dream of mine to become a professional photographer... i love to capture moments; i love to capture emotions: smiles or frowns; i love to take pictures of different things from human beings to beautiful sceneries...:D

live life... love life... capture moments... capture hearts... be happy... enjoy...

missing piece

2005-01-28T10:07:00.000+08:00

It's time to be honest with myself
i've fooled around too long
now all I think about is you
and what we used to have

i'm scared to live without your love
coz you were really all i had
now my only love has gone away
and it hurts so bad

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.
is you, is you
is you, baby.

It's time to be honest with you babe
you made me a better man
you cared for me so much
so much you scared me girl

Now I feel you in the air I breath
even though you're not in front of me
you were like a summer breeze
and it's killing me

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

is you babe
You're the only girl

I'm tired of crying, come back in my life
think about it, it's been awhile
I've never meant to hurt you baby
you're the only girl I need.....

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

is you
the only girl is you
the only girl is you

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

the only girl is you..

i'm not really sure about what i feel right now... is it bad to love someone to be able to forget the one you really love... is it really LOVE that i feel... am i trying to compete with her?! am i bad?! what is this that i feel... why am i feeling this way?! i know that i need to love someone, i need someone to love me in return... but who?! how?! in time, i know i will be able to find the answers to all of my inquiries...

t.g.i.f.

2005-01-28T09:56:00.000+08:00

my god! it's friday once again... my most loved day of the week, at last i would have the chance to go out with out thinking of what's gonna happen tomorrow; you know because tomorrow's a saturday and i could sleep according to my heart and body's content...hehehehehe... later, liane and i will go to glorietta, as usual, it's our friday bonding... kakain nalaman kami ng aming favorite chicken nuggets from mcdo... yummmmm! dahil ata duon nasisira ang diet ko...ahehehe... magpapalipas oras nalaman kami kaya sure na magwiwindow shopping nalaman kami, wish ko lang meron kaming perang pambili, diba liane?! well, ako ok lang kasi at around 5:30 magkikita kami ng mom ko para magshopping, so kung meron man akong magustuhan eh may oppurtunity akong maiuwi yun sa bahay... nice right?! anu pa ba?! well, like ko yung outfit ko for today, very beachy (you know pang beach...ahehehehe)... hahaha... i'm wearing my "oh so favorite" slippers...!!! basta. thank god it's friday!

yey!

2005-01-27T09:30:00.000+08:00

whew... my geog 131 exam was the culmination of one toxic week... finally, all the hard work is done and i'm off to enjoy the weekend without having any worries in mind... thank God for making this week a very fruitful one!

a closer look.part2

2005-01-26T11:36:00.000+08:00

mga babae ng barkada: three of the most special ladies in my life

karen
need i say more, well i've already written one whole article dedicated to her... just read that and i'm pretty sure that you will learn a lot about our friendship...

my baby sister.

barbie
hmmm...what to say about her... well, siguro para sa akin special yung friendship namin dahil hindi naman kaila na kahit may mga dinaanan kaming mga unos eh napanatili namin na maging friends... siguro pareho kaming willing na ipaglaban yung friendship more than anything else kasi dun kami nagsimula at kahit anu mang mangyari doon kami babalik... 'yang si barbs, masipag mag-aral kaya hindi namin siya masyadong nakikita... parati na lang busy sa mga plates at sa kung anuano pang school work... minsan nga naaawa na ako dyan kasi masyado na siyang nangangarag... minsan wala na siyang time para sa kanyang sarili... matulungin din yan eh... MO. CANDIDA awardee ba naman... galing 'no?! well, hindi man kami magkita parati eh alam kong andyan lang siya naghihintay lang na humingi ako ng saklolo... well, ako din... hinihintay lang kitang tumawag o magtext kahit lampas na sa magic hour ko...

diane
haayy! diane... what i like about her is that kahit hindi kami madalas magusap eh pag nagkita kami eh walang ilang factor, yung tipong parang kahapon lang eh magkasama kami, yung tipong kaya naming magusap ng kahit anong bagay, kaya agad naming magkulitan or something... sobrang saya kasama! nung umalis siya ng manre, sobrang nalungkot kami nun pero kailangan naming tanggapin na ginawa niya yun for certain reasons... alam namin na para sa ikakabuti din naman niya yun... masaya ako na kahit hindi man kami binigyan ng mahabang panahon para lubusang makilala si diane nung highschool eh, nakakabawi naman ngayong college... haay naku!

well, i'm really lucky to have them as my friends... wala sanang iwanan...

tuesday (again).

2005-01-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

oh my god... it's another tuesday... later @ 5:30pm... i have a long exam in climatology... oh so... hope i'll do good...

a closer look.

2005-01-25T09:59:00.000+08:00

with the three of my best male buddies in the whole wide world

albert
siguro kung meron mang nakakakilala sa akin ng sobra-sobra sa tatlong mokong na yan eh si albert na yun... we've been friends for almost thirteen years now... eversince grade one kami na ang magkasama niyan... napagkakamalan pa nga kaming magkapatid noon eh...hehehehehe... syempre sya yung mas matanda no... si albert, mabait yan... hindi yan nang-iiwan sa ere, hanggat kaya niyang samahan ka eh gagawin niya... hindi na kami masyadong nagkikita ngayong college kasi nag-seminaryo ang mokong... sinunod niya ang CALLING niya... it's good na isa sa amin ang kinuha ni Lord para sa pagpapalaganap ng kanyang mga teachings...

paulo
ay naku! si paulo, kasundo ko 'to sa kung anuanong bagay, siguro masasabi ko na pareho kami ng wavelenght kasi minsan ako lang talaga nakakasakay sa mga trip niya... masasabi ko na sa aming magkakabarada (girls included) siya ang pinakabatang isip... siya yung tipong kailangan mo pa talagang i-guide kasi minsan he doesn't really what he likes... sometimes he's not sure of what to do... i can say that he is one of my good friends kasi hindi man kami nagkikita parati alam namin na pag may kailangan kami sa isa't isa eh isang tawag lang ang katapat nun at siguradong dadating ang tulong... haay! salamat sa pagpapasakay mo sa amin sa car mo, bro! ayaan mo, ako ang magiging walking & talking mapa mo kahit na dumating yung panahon na "i can't hear you, i am blind"... hehehehe... pag-nagdrive na rin ako..babawi ako... nga pala marami pa akong utang na kuwento sa iyo...

andre'
ay wala na akong masulat...joke! si dre', naku hindi ko puwedeng ma-miss 'tong tao na 'to dahil linggo-linggo eh nakikita ko siya... siya ang pinupuntahan ko kapag kailangan kong maglabas ng sama ng loob tungkol sa mundo kasi kahit opinionated siya eh parati siyang handang makinig sa mga hinanakit ko... si andre' din ang boy abunda ng buhay ko dahil siya ang parating umuungkat sa mga pinakatatago kong mga sikreto (ooooo... i'm afraid...) ...hehehehehe si andre' din parating nanenermon sa akin kapag meron akong mga ginawang kalokohan... alam kong parating nandyan lang yan sa tabi ko... kasi naman kahit anong gawin asar ko sa kanya eh pinagtiyatiyagaan lang niya at pinagtatawanan lang niya... haay! soon to be mr.president 'to, sana nga kasi alam ko na with him the country will be a better place for us to live in... lakas mo sa akin 'no....hehehehe

well, i'm really lucky to have them as my friends... wala sanang iwanan...

my baby sister.

2005-01-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'

karen is my bestfriend.
i call her baby sister simply because she is really a sister to me. sometimes she acts as if she is older than me, she is always there to remeind me about certain things, she is there to cheer me up when i feel like the world is putting down its weight on me... and in return, i try my very best to be the best brother to her. i know that she really wanted to have a big brother and so i assume that a very big part of my existence is purposely allocated to answer that longing. i just hope that my efforts are enough to meet her expectations. i love her more than a friend... i love her as a true, real, genuine SISTER... i love her so so much... and i do miss her a lot because it is not often that we see each other... i'm hoping to see her in the next days... i want her to know that even though times may change, my love for her will never fade... i'll always be right next to her, i'll always be at her back to catch her whenever she falls... i'll be here for her whenever she needs me.

my friends.my family

2005-01-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

ito ang pamilya ko dito sa baba... highschool pa lang eh, kami na ang magkakasama... pero nung third year kami eh umalis si diane, lumipat siya ng school, sobrang nakakalungkot pero kailangan naming tanggapin kasi alam namin na may mga rason naman na tama para gawin niya iyon... marami ng mga pagsubok ang pinagdaanan ng barkada namin pero masaya ako dahil hanggang ngayon ay nanatili pa rin kaming buo, hindi man kami nag-uusap araw-araw eh alam naman namin na nasa puso na namin ang bawat isa... kaibigan ko sila... pamilya ko sila magpakailanman...

sila naman ang pamilya ko nung nag-aral ako sa baguio for one year, sila ang nakasama ko sa lahat ng hirap at saya na naranasan ko noong mga panahon na iyon... walang iwanan talga, siguro dahil pare-pareho kami ng mga pinagdadaanan... ngayong nasa Diliman na ako at sila ay nasa Baguio pa rin... sobrang namimiss ko sila... lipat na kayo... hinihintay ko kayo dito... iba rin kasi yung samahan natin eh... kaibigan ko sila... pamilya ko sila magpakailanman...

love my HAVAIANAS...

2005-01-20T09:48:00.000+08:00

i love to wear my slippers whenever i go to school... i love to wear my slippers whenever i go to the mall... basically, i love to wear my slippers!!! i love my havaianas... i have it in black and yellow... nice, right?!

it's a wednesday... and i have to go to school...?! uhoh...

2005-01-19T17:12:00.000+08:00

this picture was taken at the Santolan-Annapolis mrt station...

i was waiting for the train to arrive, i got bored so i took a photo of myself... actually taking pictures of myself is one of my hobbies, it may be a little egocentric but i don't have a problem with that because i do know my limits.

no posts for days...

2005-01-14T10:08:00.000+08:00

as you can see, i was not able to post articles for the past two days, simply because the past days were really toxic for me, a lot of things were to be done, there was a lot to accomplish and i barely have time to surf the net. but now, i'm back... it's pay back time... hehehehehehe... i'm really excited to write an article today, it's as if i want to blurt out whatever it is that i'm holding back for days... hehehehehehe.... tomorrow is a saturday, and i'm looking forward to spending my day with my friends & family... @ lunch time, my friends and i will meet at ATC to catch up on the latest buzz about ourselves and about other people as well... @ night, there will be a reunion of sorts, our relatives from my mother side will go to our house and they will party the night away... i'm pretty sure that there will be a lot of food, drinks and other more things that make a party extra special... heheheheheheheheehehehe... well, well, well... seems like everything will be at tops tomorrow.. ciao!

awww... senti moments...

2005-01-11T10:42:00.000+08:00

love this song... nakakakilabot in a good way... very touching...

BUTTERFLY KISSES

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from Heaven
And she's daddys little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all

For butterlfy kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony dady
It's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy
But i sure tried
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
TO deseve a hug every mornin
And butterfly kisses at night

Sweet 16 today
She's lookin like her mama
A little more every day
One part woman
The other part girl
To perfume and mke up
From ribbons and curls
Trying her wongs out in a great big world
But I remember

Butterlfy kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you dady
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I muct have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin
And butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious Butterfly
Spread yuor wings and fly

She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her aways
Standing in the bride room just starin at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm loosin my baby girl
And she leaned over

And gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the isle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddys don't cry
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask GOd for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin and butterly kisses

tuesday.

2005-01-11T10:31:00.000+08:00

it's another tuesday morning... as usual, i'll be going to school today... i'll be attending my "oh so, tinatamad na ako...gusto ko ng umuwi" classes... come to think of it, i have a 3-hour break, a 3-hour class that starts at 5:30pm and ends up at around 8:30... see how boring life can get... but the good thing is that i will be spending an hour and a half with my UP-highschool friends... well, i'm pretty sure that it's gonna be fun and worthwhile... but, but, but i can't take away the fact that the majority of my time today will be boring and tiresome...haaayyyyy

it's another day in...PARADISE?!

2005-01-10T10:03:00.000+08:00

"atin ku pung singsing
metung yang timpukan
amana ke iti king indung ibatan
sangkan keng sininup metung a kaban
meaula ya iti eku amalayan

ingsukal ning lub ku susukdul king banwa
mengurus ku ganat babo ning lamesa
ninu mang manakit kung sinsing kung mana
kalulung pusu ku, manginu ya keka"

ay sus, buhay nga naman... kumanta po kami sa geog 131... DIYOS ko po actually DIYOS po natin... nakakahiya... simula pa lang ng araw sira na... simula pa lang ng linggo may kabalastugan na kaagad kaming ginawa... haayyy, panu pa kaya sa mga susunod na araw... makabawi pa kaya ako, makabawi pa kaya ang sangkatauhan... haaaayyy BUHAY...

2005-01-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

barkada.

2005-01-09T15:06:00.000+08:00

this is me wearing my favorite RED jacket.

ngek!

2005-01-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

walang magawa...
walang makausap ng matino...
walang mapuntahan...
walang mapagkakalibangan...
ano ba ito?! ganito na lang ba ang buhay...?!
...palagay ko naman ay hindi, may mga panahon lang talaga na ganito...
haaayyy BUHAAAAY... lester ikaw ba yan?! NGEK!

blue.wave

2005-01-09T08:04:00.000+08:00

last night was ma-b's birthday celebration. a lot of my highschool friends were present at the said event. the whole night was a celebration of life...friendship and many other things... i arrived at around 6:58, just 2 minutes ahead of the "call-time"...unfortunately our other highschool friends were nowhere to be found... once again, i am EARLY BIRD....hahahahahahahaha... but that was okay, at least ma-b and i got the chance to talk and update ourselves with latest issues about ourselves... at around 8:30 in the evening, the other manresans finally arrived... and that was the start of a night full of fun and excitement!

first time.

2005-01-07T17:59:00.000+08:00

haha....first time... actually i was inspired to make my own blog because i saw anna's page and i can't deny the fact that it was cool...i know that making one for myself will be a big challenge because with the load that school work is giving me, updating or posting an article is an added "burden"... but i know deep down inside that it is not true because this is what i enjoy doing... expressing how i feel or sharing my sentiments with friends... so this is a pleasant addition to my daily routine... cheers to more articles in the future!!!